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Our society makes us this way, it makes us want to have the perfect body and perfect face. It seems so simple because, Hey Jackie has a hott stomach, or Tiffany's got gourgous hair, or jenna lost 25 pounds in a year. WHY CAN'T WE?!?! the people that obsess over it the most are the ones that don't have the gourgous hair, or the beautiful body, or we can't loose a fucking pound in less than a month after weve puked everyone of our meals up, or havent ate for 8 days and its killing your stomach. WHY CAN'T WE JUST BE THE WAY WE WANNA BE?!?!? Why us? i want to be beuatiful, and tan, and small, and have all my clothes fit me perfect but I CANT. its a never ending battle. People say they don't have eating disorders and such but if you starve yourself for days at a time just to loose a pound... Honey you have a eating disorder.
I have been battleing with Mia for over 5 years. yep. 13... and yes at the age of 15 i got up to 145 and after that i promised myself i would never get that way again. i stopped drinking pop all together, and started puking up all of my meals. Now i have an ulcer and i'm lucky if i can eat a celery stick without my stomach feeling like its gonna fucking kill me. I'm always in pain, hell im in pain right now! BUT I CAN'T STOP! and i feel so bad caz i know i never will. I need your guy's support. i don't want to throw up anymore. i just don't want to eat, at all. I'm sick of hurting or feeling fat. or being depressed. NOT ONE PERSON OUT OF MY FAMILY OR FRIENDS wonders how i've lost all my weight. Hey at least i'm skinnier huh? The only time anyone has suspected it was when my teacher caught me puking in the bathroom my junior year. I've tryed to stop puking, but everytime i over eat i shove my finger down my throat. I'm crying out for a friend. anyone with a similar story, please share it. I'm in need of a friend. I'm so lost. the people who "know me the best" Don't know my biggest fear or the biggest part of my life.
Anways....
This weekend is going to be a busy one for me so i figured it will be my fast weekend...
I figure if i'm not thinking of food, i wont eat it.
I really appricate you girls. your so awesome. if i knew you were all here to support me i would have came out and talked about it a long time ago!
What are some good fasting tips?!!? LET ME KNOW! Please. I always seem to break them . I keep pictures in my wallet beside my money so anytime i want to spend money on food i look at a beautiful skinny girl and say "fuck that" I HATE ABSOLUTLY HATE spending money on food! Its like hell. OMG worst.
Well girls stay strong! if you ever need me i'm here! I love you guys!
 HOTT.
P.s. How long do you think it will take me to get down to 98?!?!?!
THINSPIRATION LADIESSSS!!!! COME GET IT!
 
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